Wordless Wednesday

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Half a Year

I can't believe my baby turned 6 months old yesterday. When I think back, I still feel very sad about all the time that was lost while he was in NICU. Yes . . . . I KNOW how very blessed I am to have a healthy baby boy at home with me. My mind comprehends this, but my heart does not. My mom frequently reminds me of how much worse things could've been. What she doesn't understand . . . . she never lost a moment with either of her babies. She didn't have to go 26 hours before the doctors would even let her see them. She didn't have to look at her baby with tubes crammed into his mouth, nose, etc. She didn't have to say good bye to her babies night, after night, after night.  Her heart did not break into pieces when she first saw a little skeleton of a baby that held half of her soul. Unless you've been there, unless you've been a NICU parent . . . . you have no way of understanding. When I think back, 6 months back, I'm overwhelmed with RAW emotion. I celebrate the 6 months of life that my baby has had, but it hurts when I think about being robbed of the first 2. I should have been the first person to hold him and to give him his first bath. I should've felt like his mom and not a visitor. It's ALL still sooooo much. The feelings are sooooo RAW. Would I do it all over again? In one heartbeat. I love that little bug with my whole being.

NOVEMBER

NOW

Veggie Time!

We decided it was time to let Cooper have a small taste of something "different". Poor baby - almost 6 months old and has only had boobie milk & some formula. I was told by my very informative friend, Christie, that you're suppose to start with green veggies first. I think you start with the gross and slowly work your way to foods that are sweeter. :)

New FAVORITE - he looks like such a big boy!

"Here I am in this stupid seat again!"

Organic Peas - YUM! (gag)

"Wow! I'm tired from trying to figure out what to do with this stuff in my mouth!"

"No more! Please!"

Mother's Day

What a happy day for many. Yet, a VERY sad day for some. I sent up prayers for those that have lost their mothers, those that have lost a child, and those that pray to one day be a mother. It's strange to step back and look at my life . . . . ALL the things I've been blessed with. I'm so unworthy!

Mommy & Daddy Love

Easter Weekend

My first day back to work, since October 28th, just happend to be my 28th birthday. What a great memory, huh? lol. The day turned out to be okay . . . only because I knew Spring Break was right around the corner. Also, my baby sent Mommy some roses to school. He's such a thoughtful little man. ;)

Due to the fact that Charlie and I still do not feel comfortable taking Cooper into large groups of people, we knew we would not be spending Easter morning with our families. So, we decided to invite our immediate relatives to our home for a cookout on Saturday afternoon. It was great! In attendance, Mamaw, Papaw, Uncle Eric, Nana, Pappy, Uncle Lonnie, Aunt Angel, Cousins Mason and Cory. Last but not least, Great Grandpa Lon.

Uncle Eric

New Favorite Picture :)

Cooper FINALLY got to meet his Great Grandpa. 

4 Generations

First Time with a Spoon

Cooper has been taking cereal from a bottle for some time. Just for fun - I thought we would try using a bowl and spoon. View results below:

"I don't know what's going on - but I'm going to go with it."

"I think she wants me to open my mouth."

 

"Umm . . . what is this crap?"

"I HATE this!"

"Stop it, Woman! Stop, NOW!"